Sorry for not posting anything lately, but I've been in a lil mood... Well I won't sugar coat it, I've been pissed! For the last past year I've been praying for something, and it didn't happen... Not slightly, not kind of, not at all. The fact that I tried harder than ever, and got poorer results than ever, baffles me. So who do I blame? Who do I target my anger towards? The system? No... Myself? Well no, because I tried my best. So who? I looked around the room chose the 1 person that wasn't present... I blamed God.
So there I was, a grown ass man pouting, and throwing temper tantrums at the almighty like he was a step dad. I was extremely pissed, and I still haven't completely gotten over it. I'm slowly accepting it, but Im not over it. They say evything happens for a reason, but I can't figure out the method in this madness. What good can come of this. It has even troubled my writing. I feel myself giving up on everything. When I heard the news I sat in my car with my pistol and consider cntrl alt delete. But I even failed at that. Hopefully my next post will be more colorful...
